Been Awhile

It's been awhile since I posted last. I am in a much better place since my last post. I have come to grips with Lindsay being gone. I figure it has been a year since I had physically seen her since neither of us could travel at this time last year (we were both 8 months pregnant). I don't get upset with music that I know she liked. I have small moments, that take me back. It's better when I am with Paul who can get me through those small challenges (a picture, phrase, memory).
Work is insane and will only get much worse. I cannot write why at this time. I have been taking my lunch back in my classroom because I need to not get myself caught up in drama. It is not good for me, Paul, or my kids. So I completely remove myself from that situation. I have been reading my bible, the great stories I am learning, or watch Grey's Anatomy with my headphones, or read e-mails or the news. It's kind of nice. Just me time. My girls are growing like weeds. I am shocked everyday at what amazing things Izzy can do. Tonight she was telling Willow, "Run fast, I know you can do it. You're smart". She is such a happy go lucky kid who really is so sensitive yet so loving and giving. She wants to be happy and just have fun. Rees is a weed. That girl just keeps moving and I cannot stop her. It is kind of sad to see her grow up. In a few short weeks she will be walking. Delightful yet scary.